spn Ficlet for s3

[fannishliss]

SPN Ficlet for S3: Resolute

Sam thought he'd dedicated himself one hundred percent to saving Dean from the deal.

He was wrong, and it took the Trickster to show him that.

It was only after Dean died again, and again, and again, and then one last time to really drive it home, that Sam became one hundred percent devoted to saving his brother.

There was nothing he'd let stand in his way: not normalcy, not his own pain, not even Bobby.  Sam found himself eager to sacrifice whatever was necessary to save his brother, willingly and wholeheartedly.

When Groves shot Dean in the cell, Sam felt himself rising up, squaring his shoulders out of their non-threatening hunch, becoming a mountain of man between his brother and anything that would dare to threaten him.  He let the exorcism pour out of him like water.  He was ready to do anything to keep Dean safe -- even if it meant he needed to assault the station's sweet young secretary, terrify her and steal from her.

He would do anything.  He understood now what that was like.

But still, he wasn't just like Dean.  The knowledge of how far he would go didn't scare him at all. 

Comments

[bowtrunckle.livejournal.com]

Very nice. That last line is great. Sam is a mountain of a man, whoohoo. :)

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

that scene in Jus in Bello was when it all turned around for me.... Sam fighting on Dean's behalf turned me from hardcore Deangrl to Bi Bro in one awesome scene!!!

[quickreaver.livejournal.com]

\0/! Use that height and those shoulders, Sammeh.

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

yes!! more of that!!

(sadly, I also love it when they fight. It is like a clash of titans in the bad but very very good way. :D )

[desertport]

Oh, Sam! He's not frightened of himself nearly as much as he should be. That single-mindedness you describe here is always what gets him in trouble. I like this meditation on that great ep!

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

first of all, that icon is gorgeous. Sam looks so pretty!!!

I've been thinking of Sam in terms of Sherlock. I mean, Sam defines himself as an intellectual. He was small as a kid and learned to use his brain as his first weapon, and then only later became enormous. So Sam, when terrified, shuts down into this thinking machine in Sherlock terms, or, hones his body to perfection to become another weapon in his arsenal. We saw that in Mystery Spot for sure, and again with Soulless Sam when he didn't have his soul to ground him in compassion as opposed to pure logic. I think it was the same thing that paralyzed him at the end of s7 -- intellectually, there were no more options as to how to find Dean, so he kind of just shut down. It was an impasse he couldn't think his way around. So when Dean accused him of not looking, he had no retort because he never got to the stage where he could begin looking -- at least in my mind.

Thanks so much for your comments -- very much appreciated!!

[kalliel]

I love that last line, and the shift perpetuated through that scene in Jus in Bello. Ah, Sammy; so much of what I love about his character comes through so concisely and brilliantly in this ficlet. Thank you for sharing!

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

thanks so much for your comments! yes, that moment in Jus in Bello is one of my all time favorites. Many is the time I've watched it over and over. :D I love Sam who protects Dean. Yay s3!!!

that last line.... Sam does have a problem with boundaries. He doesn't have them. hubris? or just plain Winchester Stubborn?? he doesn't draw the line, he just DOES IT, whatever it happens to be. which, kind of rocks!!