spn ficlet for 9.3 "Til Death do us Part" (Mike's wife, G)

[fannishliss]

title: Til Death do us part
author: fannishliss
spoilers: SPN 9.03 I'm no Angel, feat. Mike's Wife
series: Women of Supernatural
words ~300
Summary: Mike's Wife journals about her day.


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Tuesday, October 22

Mike was feeling worse today.  He says everything tastes like burnt rubber.  We watched a Clousseau, the one where the old hotel keeper says "That is not my dog," and he smiled, and that's pretty good, all things considered.  He slept pretty well last night, only woke me up I think twice, but I cuddled him and that seemed to help.  More tests again tomorrow.   Good Lord, please have mercy.

Saw the saddest man today at church. The stained glass looked so beautiful today.  Seemed like he could see it -- he was looking at the statues too -- but he just looked so sad.  Then he spoke to me, and I could see why.  He'd lost his faith.  I felt so bad for him.

Why is it that some people keep their faith, trial after trial, doubts and all, and others never really feel it?  Sister Pauline told me once, she really feels God's presence in her life.  She's had more than one message from the other side.  Her mother, who long ago passed over, sent her messages to tell her aunts, all perfectly timed.  Why isn't everyone given that kind of gift?

Maybe they are, but they just can't hear it.

I've never heard a voice, speaking out to tell me what to do.  I never dreamed a prophetic dream or received a miraculous sign.  But in my heart, the blessings just add up.  The little things -- little nudges in the right directions.  And when everything seems awful, somehow I find the strength to go on.  There is no doubt in my mind that the Lord is with us. I hate to see Mike suffer, but I try to help him bear it, and God has given us so much, and now He gives me strength.  That's what we've been given right now, and we can't know why, or what good will come of it.   We may never know for sure.   But I do know, we've never loved one another more than we do now.  For better, for worse, in sickness and in health….

I believe that all things work for good.

And dear Lord, bless that sad, lonely man.  Such pain in his eyes. Send your sweet Angels to minister unto him -- let him know that he's never really alone.  This I pray, Amen.

Comments

[kalliel]

You know how I feel about Mike's Wife and what she had to say, and her faith, and all of her. This is such an excellent afterlife of that brief scene. <33333

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

super thanks!! :)

have you got any insight where would be a good comm to post these things??? are there any gen comms still getting traffic? :)

[kalliel]

I HAD THE SAME THOUGHT! I just posted my April Kelly fics to sn_fic and spn_gen and was just like fuck it, I don't even. XP For a fandom that really does have a decent, dedicated pocket of folks who like characters who aren't just Sam and Dean, we're definitely not built for it as a fandom--the non-existence of a horror genre community has always confused me, too. Unless it's H/C, gen just isn't differentiated. Oh, I think I also posted to spn_epific or whatever that comm is called, but it isn't updated often AT ALL (telling, because none of the tags go past season 3, :P).

I feel like we should rectify this but at the same time, if fandom's been built this way for nine years, there's probably a reason there isn't already a minor characters comm... XP Sigh!

I think minor characters/women characters have good representation on Tumblr, but I've never figured out how fandom works over there beyond pretty gifsets, so   s h r u g??? Sorry I can't be of more help!

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

Yes, those are the usual suspects -- just wondering...

I just can't get the hang of Tumblr!!

Anyway I guess we can rely on our lovely flists. :)